Post by The Sandman on Aug 4, 2023 1:47:51 GMT -5
Once again, I'm really sorry for the slowness of everything related to this site on my end.
I'm not one for big, dramatic life speeches, or pity parties, and that is emphatically not the intention here. But I do once again feel I owe you guys an apology for shitty site work, and also feel I owe you an explanation, since I really appreciate those of you who continue to sign in and do (or try to do) things even when I can't produce decent content here.
Super-short version: Parental heath issues. Depleting my time, energy, and psychological resources. But site is NOT closing.
Slightly fuller version: Basically since Christmas, my mother's had rapidly declining mental health, developing now-serious dementia (which has now all-but been diagnosed as full-blown Alzheimer's this past week). I put a lot of behind-the-scenes work into ManMMA, as well as the on-site work you guys see. As much as I enjoy doing these things, and witnessing the evolution of these fighters and all that, all of that site-work requires not just time, but mental energy (write-ups, creative/problem-solving brain power for making cards, etc). My mothers situation has obviously taken up time, as we have been travelling to their house for in-home meetings with her dementia care team members and things like that, but I have found more than anything it has been depleting my mental energy resources, and making me feel psychologically and emotionally drained. Because of that, regrettably/admittedly, my ManMMA work is suffering.
Unless I die a horrible and unforeseen death, I don't plan on going anywhere, and ManMMA is not going anywhere. But at least for the foreseeable future, I can't guarantee the weekly sims I was trying really hard to stick to. I will try, since I really liked that schedule, but it's logistically unlikely. We are simultanously planning more and more activities with my mother (which is beneficial to slowing the effects of the dementia) and my father (which gives him a break since he lives with my mother full-time and spends about a third of his days answering the same 3 questions on loop for hours upon hours).
As always, I really appreciate you guys for being here, and your saint-like patience my slowness has required. I NEVER take you or your presence here for granted, and find myself writing this because of that. I appreciate you all, and don't want you to ever feel like I'm not respecting this site (by extension the time you invest in it). And I guess because of that, I guess it's at least a little bit important to me that you guys know, and understand, that it is because of these extenuating personal circumstances that my activity has so rapidly declined. Not out of an indifference towards the site, sims, nor anything else related to ManMMA. Still here. Still love it. Still love you all. Just now cleaning up some more things on a regular basis in the mean time, and learning to adapt and juggle all the new realities of my world.
Thank you for taking the time to read this, and thank you, as always, for being here and doing the things you do here on this site.
I'm not one for big, dramatic life speeches, or pity parties, and that is emphatically not the intention here. But I do once again feel I owe you guys an apology for shitty site work, and also feel I owe you an explanation, since I really appreciate those of you who continue to sign in and do (or try to do) things even when I can't produce decent content here.
Super-short version: Parental heath issues. Depleting my time, energy, and psychological resources. But site is NOT closing.
Slightly fuller version: Basically since Christmas, my mother's had rapidly declining mental health, developing now-serious dementia (which has now all-but been diagnosed as full-blown Alzheimer's this past week). I put a lot of behind-the-scenes work into ManMMA, as well as the on-site work you guys see. As much as I enjoy doing these things, and witnessing the evolution of these fighters and all that, all of that site-work requires not just time, but mental energy (write-ups, creative/problem-solving brain power for making cards, etc). My mothers situation has obviously taken up time, as we have been travelling to their house for in-home meetings with her dementia care team members and things like that, but I have found more than anything it has been depleting my mental energy resources, and making me feel psychologically and emotionally drained. Because of that, regrettably/admittedly, my ManMMA work is suffering.
Unless I die a horrible and unforeseen death, I don't plan on going anywhere, and ManMMA is not going anywhere. But at least for the foreseeable future, I can't guarantee the weekly sims I was trying really hard to stick to. I will try, since I really liked that schedule, but it's logistically unlikely. We are simultanously planning more and more activities with my mother (which is beneficial to slowing the effects of the dementia) and my father (which gives him a break since he lives with my mother full-time and spends about a third of his days answering the same 3 questions on loop for hours upon hours).
As always, I really appreciate you guys for being here, and your saint-like patience my slowness has required. I NEVER take you or your presence here for granted, and find myself writing this because of that. I appreciate you all, and don't want you to ever feel like I'm not respecting this site (by extension the time you invest in it). And I guess because of that, I guess it's at least a little bit important to me that you guys know, and understand, that it is because of these extenuating personal circumstances that my activity has so rapidly declined. Not out of an indifference towards the site, sims, nor anything else related to ManMMA. Still here. Still love it. Still love you all. Just now cleaning up some more things on a regular basis in the mean time, and learning to adapt and juggle all the new realities of my world.
Thank you for taking the time to read this, and thank you, as always, for being here and doing the things you do here on this site.
